Day 41 Whatever tickles your fancy

Let's continue where we left off.

Tony - The Waitrose years (2001 - 2006)

My first full time year at Waitrose was a bit grim. My brothers were off to Uni making it fairly obvious to me how much I'd blown all I had. But I soon settled into a happy rut with my shelf stacking. Repetetive tasks appeal to me fair bit for some reason, so stacking and pricing was an alright time. And I began to make a large number of very good friends.

Unfortunately, this was also the time I hit another down point. While I knew many people my age who were single, I knew no one else who'd never had any luck with girls. In my defence. by this point I'd not had much chance. Went to a boys school and spent my free time with other guys in scouts. Or scouting type things. So the time came to find love. But this did not happen. While I shan't name folk involved, I chased a number of lovely ladies. Some more lovely than others. Looking back though, a lot of my problem was that I was looking for a happy ever after love type thing. When most 18 - 20 year olds don't wanna settle down. They want sex and booze and drugs and stuff. Or at least sex. So over 5 years i longed for about 3 different girls, and each eventual knock back (normally from said girl moving away - I never developed the spine to ask them out or anything) drove me a little more off the wall shall we say. By the time I was longing for a friend who chose another guy, I was right on the edge.

So rather than dig a deeper hole for meself while my friends all found love, or better jobs or both, I looked for a way out. And that way came a calling when Linda from the office suggested CAmp America. Which shall be a story for another day.

Day 40 A letter to a deceased person you wish you could talk to

To all my Grandparents

I'm writing mostly cos i feel guilty. As a family we never really got on, and when the family began to fall apart you guys were all victims n all. Grandma and Grandpa were ignored by those who supported me Mum, and so I felt sort of guilty even visiting, knowing that I'd get the piss ripped out of me when I got home. And so I didn't visit as much as I should have. And Nan used to sit in her chair and only occasionaly talk to us when we went over, so I figured you didn't really want to talk to us much. But only in your last few days did I realise how much we all meant to you. And the sitting reading magazines was just how you were. Just cos you didn't talk to us non stop like Grandma, didn't mean you didn't love us. The opposite was true. And only when hearing folk say at Grandma's funeral how much she loved having us over as children, did I realise how horrible it must have been to have your only Grandchildren suddenly either blank you entirely or visit you out of guilt rather than wanting to visit you. And as you are all now gone I'm afraid I can't change the things that were done, or apologise for them.
Sorry.

From Tony

Day 39 Zodiac sign and do you think it fits your personality

As I'm waaaaay behind on this, let's do two today.

I am a Capricorn! We are : Practical and prudent
Ambitious and disciplined
Patient and careful
Humorous and reserved

and also

Pessimistic and fatalistic
Miserly and grudging


Well I'm certainly pessimistic. I'm very grudging. Not particularly ambitious, patient, careful or disciplined. So it seems I fulfil all of capricorns worst traits. Goooo me!

Day 38 A photo of your parent(s)

Hey blog fans. Tony is back from holidaying. Lets see if i can dig out some photos here.

Here's me dad, in 2006 I believe. He looks much the same now.

And rather than put effort into finding a photo of me Mum, I just browsed Facebook, where she appears once. She be front left opposite my dad. Also here is Rebecca's Mum, Granny and Granddad. And me and Becca.

Day 37 A song that you like to dance to

Dancing ain't really my thang. Maybe 'a song you like to wave your arms in a camp manner to while singing along' shall be more appropriate.
And convieniently I have two such songs that I like doing that to right now.

I didn't really know this til Becca bought me a Boney M cd for me car. Now it is a regular. I specially like the key change before the third verse. If that is a key change. Im not sure. I hear these words and use em to sound clever. Anyway, thats the bit i generally let go of the sterring wheel and start bouncing.

Whats next...

Most kids my age first heard this in Short Circuit 2. Kids today know it from Shrek 2. Everyone should know that it is awesome. A song that must be cranked up to 11. Specially during the little bit before the end. I dunno what you call those bits. Ya know, where its different to the rst of the song. You'll know it whne you hear it.

Day 36 Some hobbies of yours

Sitting on my arse mostly. Although that may be more of a habit than a hobby. Same goes with being a geek. Although I've recently begun trying to embrace nerdom rather than pretend I'm above it all. Nostalgia is the means to do that. And so I will count my hobby as reliving my childhood through old tv shows, games and... no..just those two things.

Day 35 A letter to your crush

Nah. I'll pass on this. I mean, I don't have a crush. As far as I know, crushes aren't often returned. And also as far as I know, all my physical attraction for one girl is returned. Maybe not all the time but enough for me to warrant not writing a letter.